1.The baby is still staying put even after experiencing some more intense contractions last night.
2. While I was floating on my side in a warm bath per my midwife’s recommendation last evening, I felt tears prickling behind my eyes. At first I tried to hold them back. Then I started praying to the Queen of Mothers who knew what it was like to be afraid but still chose to trust. I let the tears fall. I released them again this morning. I realized I was trying to hold many of my emotions in and act as if I was superhuman, that nothing would get me down. But in my tears, I left my hero cape behind, admitted I was afraid, and asked Mary to be a mother to me right now.
3. I’m using bed rest to catch up on some spiritual reading. I just started Grace Cafe: Serving Up Recipes for Faithful Mothering by Donna-Marie Cooper O’Boyle, and it’s been just what I need as I find myself once again abiding in the eve of new motherhood.
Here’s an excerpt from the book that applies to the small and big successes as well as the sufferings moms face throughout their mothering lives:
“The passing of time reminds us to be patient with our ‘little’ duties and our difficult ones, aware that ‘this too shall pass’ when we face the everyday challenges that beset us. We can be confident knowing that after we have fulfilled this piece of our mothering, we will soon be on to another phase–another season. Each moment is important. For our children’s sake, let’s try not to wish them away.”
I’m so looking forward to the newborn season – when pregnancy is behind me, this precarious waiting is over (“This too shall pass!”), and my baby is in my arms. Yet, for the sake of my growing little one, I do not want to rush this necessary layover but to embrace it as another part of my mothering journey.
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