- Catholic Carnival #179: The latest edition of Catholic Carnival is posted at Building An Ark. It has a “Swimming Lesson” theme (it’s a very creative and well-done compilation) and is filled with some great stuff. Don’t miss it.
- New Name, Same Mission: You may have noticed that my blog header now reads “Momopoly.” I’d actually had another blog by this same name and posted most of the same stuff over there. I decided to consolidate my efforts. So the URL remains the same and so does the overall theme – miscellaneous mommy musings and some faith stuff, too – but the name is a tad bit more original than “Kate Wicker.”
- Attachment Parenting: I didn’t mean to. I swear, but I participated in Danielle Bean’s Coffee Talk (for the second or third time in my blogging life; I’m not a huge blog commenter) and I opened up a can of worms. How many times has poor Danielle had to moderate a discussion on AP? I only wanted advice on a biting baby who seems ready to wean, but I happened to mention I was an AP mom. Why, oh why? Never. Again. All of a sudden people started going back and forth on the virtues as well as the evils of AP. And I just sat there thinking, “Huh?” Is this really what we should be focusing on?
Yet, at the same time, I just couldn’t stop myself from weighing in, partly because I was accused of being an insecure mom and because someone said my comment was “proof” that AP was bad for kids.
Bad for kids?
Lavish indulgences. Abuse. Letting children to watch unlimited TV every day while noshing on junk. Allowing kids to stay up until midnight and hit their siblings. These are all bad for kids. But how is wanting to breastfeed my child beyond a year (not until she hits puberty, mind you) and wearing her in a sling when I cook bad for her? I just don’t get it. I don’t understand why the phrase “attachment parenting” unleashes so much frustration, rage, and/or guilt.
So, I posted a tome (before I noticed Danielle’s kind appeal to not “go there” – I’m so, so sorry). I then asked anyone who wanted to discuss what I’d written to mosey on over here. Thus, I’m pasting what I shared below. If you’re sick and tired of hearing about AP, stop reading right this minute. Just please know that whether you consider yourself an AP parent or not, you’re doing a great job of raising your kids. Don’t let anyone tell you any differently.
My comments:
Okay, the AP debate rages on! That wasn’t my intention. I probably should have left the AP part out. Looking back, I’m not sure why I wrote the post at all.
I do appreciate everyone’s comments and insight. I suppose I shouldn’t have used the word “rejected.” If you look at my blog , you’ll see I’m really poking fun at myself for being sensitive about this (comparing myself to a stalker and lovesick teenager who can’t take a hint!). Honestly, my feelings are more wistful than hurt and it’s really not about the nursing; it’s about knowing my baby is growing up.
As I wrote in the post, one of the greatest ciphers of motherhood is figuring out when it’s time to “hold on” and when it’s time to let go. I have an inkling it’s time to “let go,” and I am sad in some ways (and happy in others; weaning from anything, after all, is a beginning, not simply an end) that a chapter is ending.
Now I don’t want to turn this into a heated debate (hasn’t poor Danielle moderated enough of AP discourse?), but I do feel compelled to clear up a few things after some of the comments I’ve read:
1. If being a wee bit sad that my baby is growing up too quickly makes me an insecure mom, then I am one. Am I being a little defensive here? Yes. But I can’t understand why moms are often one another’s worst enemies. Danielle started her forum as a place for encouragement and advice, not a place to tear moms down. I only added the fact that I was an AP parent in my original post to give you some background on my situation, not to make anyone feel guilty or to see a need to suggest my “post” proves AP is bad for kids or that I am just a mom who’s lacking confidence.
I even wrote in my “Weaning Mommy” post that our job as parents is to teach our children to become less dependent on us and more dependent on themselves (and God, above all). One of the biggest misunderstandings of AP is that the parents are “softies” who don’t believe in boundaries. This could not be further from the truth. Maybe there are some AP parents who let their kids run wild and accompany “free love” with no consequences, but I’ve actually been accused of being too strict. And for the record: My kids have very set bedtimes (more so than some of my non-AP friends). My husband calls me the bedtime drill sergeant. They also have boundaries AND consequences (sometimes natural and sometimes enforced). I let them be disappointed . I am not some saccharine sweet parent showering my kids with undivided attention.
Elizabeth Foss wrote a wonderful post about AP parenting and consequences and how the term “attachment parenting” has been distorted in many ways. She discusses how parents who stay attuned to the needs of their children will discover how important it is for their kids to handle rewards/consequences of life with virtue. She also writes, “I will not dig in my heels over an “Attachment Parenting” checklist (that seems to change) to the detriment of my children’s moral development. Furthermore, my goal here is not to be Attached Parent of the Year; it is to raise godly men and women who will bring glory to their Lord. My babies (and sometimes big kids;-) sleep in my bed. I’m nursing a toddler through a hyper emesis pregnancy in order to tandem nurse for the fifth time. I’ve never hired a babysitter. We don’t spank. We take our kids with us everywhere, particularly when they are younger than three. I think we’re pretty attached according to Attachment Parenting as I first understood it. I love Sally’s term for her approach to training a child to meet the rewards and punishments of life: It’s grace-based parenting; it’s Heartfelt Discipline. Attachment parenting is simple when the children are very young. It’s not easy, but is simple. You meet their wants and so you meet their needs. You pour out yourself body and soul for little ones who rely on you for their everything. It’s hard physical labor, demanding as it is rewarding. This is your body, given up for them.” I encourage you to read the rest here, whether you agree or disagree with what you think it means to be an AP parent, here .
I also want to offer one scenario that perhaps will help give those who are against AP (or think they are) some perspective. Let’s say my toddler is screaming, throwing a fit. How should I react? The “AP Mom” in me goes over to the child and offers him a hug. Maybe that works. Maybe it doesn’t. But I try to show him that I care that he’s upset even if pitching a fit over the fact that his sandwich was cut into triangles instead of rectangles is completely illogical. Do I condone kicking and screaming? Absolutely not. If he’s completely out of control and “gentle love” doesn’t work, then I will separate myself from him so he can “cool off.”
However, I resist the temptation to yell or to completely ignore him or to constantly put him in time out or to sequester him to a “naughty chair.” Why? Because that’s what we do as compassionate human beings (forget the parenting part). Think about it this way. Let’s say you’ve had an awful day in the trenches and when your husband comes home, you lose it. You cry and vent and complain. You throw an “adult tantrum.” Now how would you want him to respond?
A) “Geez, get a grip. What’s wrong with you? Why don’t you go cry alone in your room?”
OR
B) He gives you a hug and says that maybe you need some time alone to “cool off.”
He’s really doing the same thing in both scenarios, but how he goes about doing it is very different. Should you be acting like a child? No. But it wouldn’t help you or anyone to be told to just get over it or to imply that something is wrong with you, when really something is just wrong with how you’re expressing some frustration, because clearly you’re hurting.
Am I always a model parent? NO WAY!!! In fact, lately I’ve felt more like a mommy monster than a model mommy. But I do try. We can only be ourselves. There is no golden pattern we each must follow to be amazing parents, nor do we have to be perfect parents. In fact, it’s important to teach our kids that we are not perfect and that we know how to accept our limitations. The only perfect parent is God. We must remind our children of that.
What is important, however, is that the overall weight of how we respond to our children – whether it’s to their joy or their hurts – is more positive and attentive than negative and neglecting. Following the AP principles like breastfeeding, holding babies a lot, co-sleeping (I slept with my baby last night, but I do not sleep with her most nights.), etc. is ONE but certainly not the only way of communicating to our children that they are loved and that they are a blessing, not a burden in our lives.
Not surprisingly, one of the biggest fruits I’ve seen thus far of responding to my kids’ needs/cues is that they are very empathetic. Recently, I had a nursery worker at the gym (see, I still do take time for myself) comment on how kind my oldest was to the other children. When kids would cry, she would go comfort them. Why? Because that’s what her mommy does. Okay, I’ll stop being the obnoxious mommy now. No, she didn’t start reading Tolstoy at 3.
Of course, I will say that part of her empathy is probably innate. My two girls are very different (I can’t wait to see how my future children turn out!). I have one “needy” child; the other is fiercely independent, so I don’t think you can say AP produces this “type of child.” There’s a lot more that goes into a child’s personality than whether we babywear them or not.
2. Now, all that said, I have written about the AP Debate before and I do not believe there’s such a thing as one-size-fits-all parenting. Good parents adopt all different parenting styles. Common sense, your gut instincts, and above all, opening yourself to the graces of God and our Blessed Mother are what help us be good parents more than embracing any one parenting “platform.” However, I don’t understand the strong (and often angry) opposition to AP. I don’t criticize my friends who don’t practice AP or extended breastfeeding, etc. and I only ask that others don’t criticize me. I wasn’t asking to have my parenting style put on a dissection table. I was asking for support.
3. Which brings me back to something I’ve also written about in the past: Why is it that moms find themselves being so judgmental about others’ choices? To answer this question, I have to examine why I occasionally marble my mommy philosophy into conversation with other mothers. I’m not trying to make other moms feel bad. On the contrary, I’m trying to make myself feel good (or at least a little better) about the choices I make for my children.
Ultimately, motherhood is a job we all feel really passionate about and emotions run high when we talk about why we do the things we do. We’re all trying so hard to do our best that we may sometimes lose sight of the fact that what’s best for us may not be what’s best for someone else. But what we fail to see is that all those derisive zingers and even those more subtle, little comments can obviously be upsetting to the wounded party.
So, in closing, I hope that none of this offended anyone – that was not my intent. I pray that we can all embrace our vocations as wives and moms and be open to God’s graces. And when we feel the need to look to someone for guidance on how to be a better mom, we should look no further than Mary, the model of mothers.
Amanda M. says
I linked over from Danielle’s site. I strongly believe that AP is a great thing. I have done this with my daughter and she’s quite the little independent gal at age 3. I feel she is independent because she KNOWS I am always there for her, thus she feels like she can strike out on her own at the playground, etc. knowing I’m always there. I don’t judge people ont their style of parenting (unless it’s like neglect or illegal or something), but I’ve been WAY WAY WAY judged by others and it’s so hurtful. I just hope you know you have supporters and I personally support you LOTS!!! Amanda in WI
Adele says
Kate,
I wrote the message to you on Danielle’s site about my baby slowing nursing when he was a year (and I was pregnant without knowing it yet). I really like wha t you write and I feel like we’d be really good friends if we lived closer!!! You word things the way I think them and I really look forward to getting your messages in my emails (Isubscribed via email). I think you are a beautiful mom and I admire and reaspect SO much that your heart aches to continue nursing Rae. I will be praying for you that she’ll come back to it!! I have 5 living children (all under 8) and ALL of them have gone through biting while I’m nursing. I’ve actually bled thru shirts-ouch. I’ve heard so much “advice” I didnt want that I sort of quit asking…I’m not going to “click” my baby,”pat”their leg….all of that talk really breaks my heart. I could NEVER imagine doing that nursing or NOT nursing!!!! Honestly, I know I probably sound a little crazy, but I did my best to offer it up for the baby and that I would be the Mommy they needed me to be. Sometime I needed to gently pull them off of me and just snuggle a minute before trying again. I am happy to tell you though that NONE of them are still biters (exept the 4 month old I am nursing right now!) and we are all very very close. Your efforts WILL bear much fruit. I was having a terrible day today and was not being the mom I needed to and so in the middle of it (GRACE was obviously present!) I had all the kids get together and we prayed together. My day has taken a DRASTIC turn for the better and I am so thankful to God that He has helped me form relationships with my kids that are so tight and prevail even on really dark days. A few hours later, my oldest boy came up to me while I was nursing the baby and said that he and my 6 year old were discussing how one of them needed to become a priest so that at our family gatherings when they “get big” :(, they can celebrate Mass for all of us before all of us eat and play with all the cousins! Somehow I knew it was God allowing me to see that for all I do so terribly WRONG, there is something happening here that is very, very right. And I owe all the credit to God. You are a witness to me and I want you to know you are doing something very, very right in your family.
love, Adele
Dina says
Hi Kate,
I have to admit that all I know about ap is what I have inferred. But if you don’t mind I will add my 2 cents anyway. I have 5 children. I only breastfed the last two. One for only several weeks, and the other until she was two and a half. She’s 3 now. I have to say that I deeply regret not breastfeeding my other babies. It was not something my mom or anyone else I knew at the time did.
After nursing my daughter, I realized how awesome it is for both of us. I really felt an incredible bond with her; this is not to say I don’t feel a bond with my other children.
I also had her sleeping with me for quite some time, and I do lie down with her now. But I needed to lie down with almost all my children. And I tried the “let them cry it out” approach with my first. I truly think it has contributed to his lack of a good self-image. He is now 15. I know part of it is his personality, but I can’t help wondering how letting him cry has affected him. Babies need to know they can count on us when they need us.
For me, the bottom line is that we need to follow our instincts as mothers. These instincts will guide us to do what is best for each individual child. Each child is different!
You are so right about moms tearing each other down. We need to support each other even when we don’t share the same parenting philosophies. Sometimes we even influence someone to try something that they were previously afraid of doing. You could change someone’s whole life that way.
Kate says
God bless all you lovely ladies for your encouragement ! And Dina, my friend, one thing I know for certain is that we can’t take all the credit or all the blame for the way our kids turn out. I know from personal experience; I plan on writing a post about it soon. However, I had one brother who came from the same loving family that I did that suffered with a drug addiction for many, many years. My parents were in agony. My mom constantly questioned what she did wrong…then one day while praying she realized she had to stop overanalyzing every thing she’d done as a parent and also stop trying to “fix” my brother. She released him to God’s care. And amazingly, he recovered. He now works full-time at a Christian ministry that helps people with drug addicts. When released our children to God’s care, we free ourselves from the emotional roller coaster type of existence. This is very, very tough, according to my mom, but it’s the best thing she ever did.
You are all wonderful moms and I’m praying for you!
Michelle says
Hi Kate. I felt so bad about all the negetive AP comments and lectures for you to just deal with it, when all you really needed was a hug!
{hug}
It’s rough when our babies grow up faster than we expect. Even though we all know they have to, and even though deep down we want them to, it’s still difficult. My husband will never understand the tears I have shed over babies growing out of tiny clothes, cutting first teeth, even surprise self-potty training at an early age (just turned 2).
This has nothing to do with parenting style. It’s just the way most women are (at least I thought).
You have my permission to cry, eat some chocolate, go for a long walk or take a long hot bath and mourn the passing of one stage of baby to another.
Emily says
Just wanted to say “hugs!” Hang in there… we’ve been there done that and it IS hard. One of the most difficult parts of parenting, I feel, is ignoring all the threats regarding all the terrible things that are going to happen if you respond to your children’s needs and forging on and doing what you know is best for your famiy. Sorry you got flamed. How sad.
Dan and Janet Brungardt says
Hi Kate,
I missed the discussion on Danielle’s blog this week (we are packing up our house to move in a few weeks- yikes!), but I wanted to say I think you are a great mom!
Everyone has to figure out what works for them and their family. I read books and listen to advice, but I take it all with a big grain of salt! Mommy’s instincts are usually best.
It is sad when weaning time comes no matter how old the baby is. Sad and happy that they are gaining independence. Personally I always have this fierce secret joy that I alone am nourishing my babies for the first 6 months. So I get a little sad (and happy) when they start eating food, and so on and so forth with all the little milestones.
Janet